reemerging feelings

[jusrob2121]

yo morph what good bro
been haveing some re emerging feelings about a ex i broke off with earlyer this year in march to be exact

we were together for about 2 years could be more but that not really important
we started out as friends the we started fucking (i mean like 3 times a day)
at the time she had a dude but i was the only one getting it
ill admit she was a big girl but she looked good with it pritty face nice breasts phat ass phat pussy (god i used to have her folding the matres) sex was good i can say she was and still is wifey material

but that all changed.
the back story is she was the daughter of one of my mothers friends now this friend had a relationship with one of my uncles (i didnt know much about it just that they broke up)
she was staying with us at the time and one thing led to another and we ended up hooking up.

now her mom found out and lets just say she was none too happy about it (at that time she was 17 going on 18 in 3 months so i didnt worry about the age i was 20 -21 at the time )
she through a fit threatening to call the cops and press charges of rape and all that (wasn't worried ) but that was the beginning of the end she moved we broke off for a lil while till shit cooled down but still talked
now shes living with her grand mother
a woman i have never in my life met who claims she would kill me on sight for her grand child (the same grand child she kicked out a few years earlier hence the stay at my place)

flash forward to the beginning of the year we hooked back up for a while now and all though it be sort of shadowed we were happy for the most part.

now ive been accomadating her situation for a while at the time i was dealing with school. laid off so no real cash flow but still wanting to be with her
evey time we made a date it was like sneaking around in shadows at first it was cool but my pride was being chipped away (i aint hiding from no one)
every time we went anywhere she looking over her shoulder for people like her fam got spies all over the city and shit
always in a rush to get back to the house like some parole type shit

i had to step to her like babe come on you 19 gonna be 20 in a month and u sneaking like a 13 year old. you gotta talk to you people if u want ill come through and introduce myself and work fron there

now the look of a run away slave hit he (youss gon gets me in truble ) it went on like this for a while me telling her to talk to her fam she being too scared to try. till i get fed up

toped asking her to go out started going out with other chicks but all the while wanting to be with her

we hooked up one day went to lunch started talking the shit exploded she ended up saying " fuck this relationship" and walked out (im partially to blame cause i really wasnt interested in what she had to say same excuese ive heard many times)

she called a few days later like nothing at all happened
so my reaction is " u dumped me y u calling "
the normal baby in sorry i was under alot of stress blah blah blah

we mad up and it was smooth glass for about 2 weeks
then again she broke up with me over not wanting to have lunch with her.
and again the phone call blah blah blah tooke her back a second time

the final time is what hurt me (the reason we not together ) she asked me so send her some picks of i did and in the bunch with a pic of her mom (funny looking picture) i made a comment laughing that i should post it

she blew up cursing the hell outa me (big mistake dont curse me)
we went back and forth i lost my cool and posted a comment on her face book (mind u nothing disrespectfull) the same pic she blew up over was already posted on fucking face book.

well she eventually told me she hated me and i ruined her life and she wish we never hooked up.
(that shit hurt )

so i cut her completely cut her phone deleted her info
and took a trip back home where i hooked up with baby girl (thats another story)

when i cam back she was the first person to call me she wanted to see me i had nothing against her so i agreed
bottom line she wanted to get back together
i told her im sorry but too late i gave u 3 chances and each time u through them back at me and the last time as the worst
she asked is there no way
i told her stright up i wouldnt do that to her cause if i was to ttake u back i would literally treat u like shit and i dont want that for u or me

the funniest part to this whole mess is that after we broke up and all this shit fell through he mom (who cant stand me) asks her if we still togeather she says no and what does her mom say "thats too bad i think i really loved you"

morph i ask
were my decisions right?
is it cool for me to still have feelings for her? (be it just physical)
did i make a mistake in not ending this farce sooner?

lemme know bro i look forward to your wisdom

[MorpheusX]

Sniffle... You make me so proud... :clap2: Well done, young Padawan. You are well on your way to Jedi Knighthood.

It's natural to still have feelings for someone that you were so close with before. I never said that you make these decisions and feel nothing when you do them.

It hurts. It always does. It's never easy. But I know that the hurt that comes from allowing yourself to get played over and over again, taking their asses back only to have them use you and then dump you hurts a LOT worse.

You see, once a woman breaks up with you, terminal cancer has been introduced into your future together. Even if you were to get back together, it would only be a matter of time till she's built up enough hatred towards you to end it once and for all and walk away with the power and a piece of your heart.

By ending it yourself and refusing to let her play you again - no matter how much she begs, you've taken back your power and left her holding the pain, sadness and loss that would have been yours shortly after you had let her back in.

Yes, it hurts. Yes, there will be doubts. Yes, you will miss her. Yes, you will be tempted to give her yet ANOTHER shot. Yes, yes, yes...

BUT it was the right decision to make. Better to be the one that leaves than the one to be left and better to leave her feeling guilty and missing you and regretting what she did than to show her how low your dignity, self esteem and self respect are by taking her back after she walked all over you 3 times before. It would be the same as giving her a license to fem-dom ass rape you with the strap on jagged blade dildo from the movie "Seven" (Se7en).

http://www.thefleshfarm.com/se7en/se7enreviewpic1.jpg

By walking away now, you have set it up so that you will be emotionally stronger and more empowered over your future dealings with women.

Also, as an extra added side bonus, you will always be the one that got away to her and she will hold a soft spot in her heart for you, so in the future, if you wanted to, you could probably tap that ass almost at will.

Maybe even turn her into a your jump off. It's up to you. ;-)

But your instincts were right.

The only critique I have is that after she broke up with you the first time, I would have deaded it permanently, barring some extenuating circumstances that would mitigate that.

And if I deemed that there was some extenuating circumstances that bore giving her a second look, I would make that bitch WORK for it, so that she valued me.

She'd have to call me because I'd never call her, chase me, cook me dinner, buy me gifts - shit like that. I'd put her through her paces to make sure she was fully invested in me before I'd consider fully taking her back.

And even then, I'd still play a little bit hard to get with her to keep her on her toes. She's proven herself to be disloyal, uncommitted and one who crumbles under pressure. So she requires proper motivation in order to maintain her position. She needs to sweat you perpetually.
And the only way to do that is show them that you know your value as a man and that you are willing to walk away at the drop of a hat if they fuck up even a little.

You've got to be the enforcer of your own heart. It's fragile.
So protect it with a brollick, knuckle dragging, no-neck having, tattoo tears wearing emotional bodyguard with the iron stomach and heartlessness of a pimp.

[jusrob2121]

:grin:
yea man ive been paying attention to you guys and i gotta say that ive used allot of what i got from here with different chicks and the shit works

my most recent ex i treated in different as hell
when she asked if i would be upset if we broke up i straight up told her no
which kept her on my dick even more.
(she a good fuck but thats about it bitch aint doing shit with her life)

waste of time so i deaded it :laugh: still calls me every other day asking to spend time with me (i got shit to do dont got time for losers )
now im checking this Haitian chick
dam i hope she can fuck cause with that body it would be such a shame if she couldnt.

back to the topic
i tend to give people chances you get 3 chances with me maybe less depending on how serious the fuck up. after 3 i cut you off with no regrets cause i know i tried to work with you

but in recent months im really considering revising that habit

thanks as always bro
for your golden words of wisdom:bow:

[nextel595]

And even then, I'd still play a little bit hard to get with her to keep her on her toes. She's proven herself to be disloyal, uncommitted and one who crumbles under pressure. So she requires proper motivation in order to maintain her position. She needs to sweat you perpetually.
And the only way to do that is show them that you know your value as a man and that you are willing to walk away at the drop of a hat if they fuck up even a little.

PREACH!!!!!!!:thumbsup::bow: